Gwyneth Paltrow writes incredibly thought-provoking essay ahead of her 50th birthday

September 27, the legendary actress Gwyneth Paltrow She has the incredible occasion of turning 50. The actress is the mother of two children she has with her ex-husband Chris Martin. She has built her illustrious career with her many great performances. Most recently, she is known for playing the role of Pepper Potts in the Marvel Cinematic Universe.

The actress has definitely had many fulfilling lives to look back on, both good and bad. She did so in an essay posted on her own Goop blog.

In the essay, Gwyneth reflects on the mistakes she made during her 50-year long life.

she said:

“My mistakes are in the shadows, slippery and dark, so hard to define. Not because I don’t know what it is, but because I hide it from my logbook. I hurt people, but I have let people down by not being who they needed me to be.I have betrayed myself to keep the peace. I have crossed the line into the long dark night’s hollow of shame.”

However, Paltrow continued that her biggest regret was not speaking up and staying silent.

“Very unfortunately, and often, to avoid the perceived consequences of hurting someone tearing us apart, I didn’t speak my truth. My most enduring All the mistakes and the confusion that comes with it, the truth and what it takes to speak out of it. Saying words that might have escaped a season of heartache and repercussions. No. This doesn’t feel right to me. Your Your expectations are not right Your actions are not right This relationship is no longer right This project is not right for me You are not right for me anymore

Paltrow also admitted that she was far from perfect and had many flaws herself.

“I want to fully admit myself. I’m imperfect. I can shut down and turn into ice. I can’t stand it. I speak ill of other drivers. Close the closet door.” No. I lie when I don’t want to.” Offended. ”

Paltrow concludes his essay with some words of wisdom on the power of reflection: , the heart is full and broken at the same time (because that’s life). ”